Walk My Talk; Talk My Walk
Something weird is happening.
My life is unravelling before me…
This, on my 36th year of existence, jurassic by some standards, hardly the age for new beginnings.
One would have thought that motherhood would slow me down. A five (5) month old baby that heartbreakingly clutches on me, a nine (9) year old boy I could hardly keep up with, a husband to pamper and pander to, a household to run, loads of officework to attend to….but no.
In an uncanny sort of way, I find myself…
In a museum.
Rediscovering a childhood love for art,
And rekindling past friendships.
Joining my first walkathon.
And, sans the bulging belly, loving it!
Opening a Food Order/Take-out Service.
Sharing my passion for food and finally living out a dream.
Joining Facebook (through the proddings of Blue Sneakers).
Finally coming to terms with a sordid high school past,
And, in a weird sort of way, discovering that I was well-liked(?) afterall.
I am putting myself out there.
And it is scary, exciting, and joyous all at the same time!
There are moments I am filled with self-doubt, the chip on my shoulder sometimes a brick dragging me down. I am still scared of judgment, of dismissal, of failure. But the great thing about being at this age I guess is that I can now handle it, welcome it, and then chuck it all up to being just one of those things.
And so, Feng Shui updates notwithstanding, I will go on that Carlos Celdran Imelda Tour, I will enroll myself on that catering service training course, I will illustrate my friend’s children’s book, I will attend (sked permitting) our High School 20th Year Reunion, I will work my butt out to fit into that tiny black dress, and do more!
I will stand on a precipice and face my fears.
I will ‘Walk my Talk’ and ‘Talk my Walk’.
I will allow the blessings of the Lord to wash over me, overwhelm me.
I will go on this journey…
And experience what life has in store for me. 🙂